you try to push him away. he wont be in u'r head if you keep busy.

but you'll get moments where he comes back into your thoughts. and you can't get him out of u'r head.

you can't run away from it. you dwell and he encompasses all your thoughts so it's only him you can think of.

everything reminds you of him. the list of 195 things...and those where the only ones i wrote down. lists. this is hard.

you can't change people. people are the way they are. ambitious is now one of my qualities i will look for. achieving goals. i do it. you must too.

it was great while it lasted but like any happiness you were just a vacation from reality.